I know, You are trying your best.
I can see that.
But
There are things that cant be expressed in English.
There are things that can be expressed easily in Chinese.

No one is pushing anyone away.
For me, You are
Someone Important.
Someone Meaningful.
Someone In My Heart.

Take a Gun and Shoot My Head

and tell Phoebe I Miss Her.

Use a Car and Crush My Body

and tell Phoebe I Want her.

Wash away my Memories

and tell Phoebe I Need Her.

Summon the Reaper take my Soul to hell

and tell Phoebe I love her.

Tell Phoebe I don't want to Lose Her.

Perfectism.

Nothing in the world is PERFECT.
Perfectism is an ecstasy, a fantasy, an illusion for we human.
Perfectism will never be achieved by humans.
Because we are not the perfect being, not the superior race.
We are just Humans.
Scientist are addicted to find a way to achieve Perfectism
when they know it will never be achieved no matter what.
Because the plesure of finding something which doesn't exist at all is so
HIGH
Thus, they drug themself with experiments, they dream in labs.
Just to obtain a result with is near to 0 % instead of 100%.
Obtaining or Achieving Perfectism is a disease, an infection which spreading slowly in our society.
Scientist are only endulging the plesure in the mist of Perfectism .

Even PERFECT is incomplete.
With superhuman senses, What can we do with our non super human body?
Probably Our Body cant cope with the incoming information receive by our receptors.
With superhuman body, What can we do with our non super human senses?
Probably Our actions will be faster than our mind.
With both superhuman body and senses, What the Hell You can do with a NON SUPERHUMAN WORLD?
The world might just think you can always save the world till you die.
THE questions will just continue.

爱请能把两个人连牵。但是要继续一段爱情 需要付出很多很多 爱情的过程中 我们会成长，我们会变得更成熟 我们会去了解一个人。 他们的优点，他们的缺点。 全部是美的。 我们所爱的人，他们的特征 他们的个性，我们是要接受的。 爱情不是完美无缺的。 爱情也不是我们所想到的那么甜蜜。 因为世界上没有东西是完美的。 但是如果两个人 体谅和包容对方 相信那段恋爱不只会是甜蜜 而且还会进下一个恋爱的阶段。 在爱情里我们所做的一切 都回影响到对方的感受 隐瞒，欺骗，出轨 这些事爱情里最大的敌人。 但是如果你对你的爱人有所信任及信心 你就会知道成熟恋爱真正的意义。

P.S I Love You Too

Babe, Its ok.. Its natural to question me. You had Questioning and Saying some stupid things but it is ok.. Trust me its ok.. I know you had a bad time last time. So I understand how you feel and questioning is kinda normal thing to do. I used to question love. But now, I fully trust and believe You because I Love You and you need not make any promises to me. Just be truthful with me Babe. Thats all I ask..

I'm glad you not gonna predict anything or think nonsense anymore.. Pheww.. Just follow the flow babe.. Love me and just love me.. ok? Dont question me, my love and dont doubt it.

I'm Me, and as long Babe Loves me. I'll be me.

I'll go through this journey with you, learn new things, create memories and be more matured

I love You.

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600,000 strands of traits in our DNA and there are Billions of Sequence for all these sequence to be combined. To have the same DNA sequence, the chance is like one in billions and with that probability against the world population, having same sequence in DNA with someone else is rare, Very R.A.R.E. Thus everyone is different, everyone is special. I’m a Pisces. I’m a Pisces from 24th of February. We honestly, I’m complicated. I mean Very C.O.M.P.L.I.C.A.T.E.D. I sometimes can be moody. Sometimes I can be very very happy. Sometimes I just can’t stand with stupidity and immature things. Sometimes I just want to be isolated. Sometimes I want to be with people. I have some issues with certain things and I really don’t know what those issues are till now. It takes more than days and months to understand and know me. People who know me for years, honestly, I do not know how much they really know me.

Yea, you might think that how I could say “I Love You” to so many girls before. Well, honestly I did love them once. But there are things that they did and there are some things that I did stupid enough to screw things up. I’m not putting blame on anyone but there are things that can hurt a relationship so much that two person never talk to each other again, there are things that can cause lovers become enemies. Well, everything is in the past and I’m not walking the past. I’m just walking down the road with someone I love now and maybe for a long long time. I put faith and I believe everything will go well but sometimes it won’t end up good. However this is Me. I have faith and trust in you because I LOVE YOU Phoebe.

Simple Physics and Maths Equation of Love

Love is like square root of two which have an answer of 1.4142. Why it can’t be a perfect square like 4 which has an answer of 2 or which have a value of 4 ? Love ain’t perfect as what we see. Love is like gravity which have a value of 9.812 which pulls two different individual without noticing it. Why it can’t be a higher or lower value? A higher value will pull two individual so hard that things go wrong and when the value is lower than 9.812 they will be further apart from each other. A couple is like a moon orbiting earth with a speed of 1.002 meters per second just to stay together with a certain distance. But when two individual value 1.4142 multiplies, the answer is 2. Just like when two different people meet and live happily just like a perfect square even 2 is not a perfect square.

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People change in time. We get more matured as time pass by.
The gain in exprience make us what we are now.
Becoming a better person compared to the one in the past,
Is certainly a good thing. Time is a teacher with teaches us
without us noticing.


The Future is not for us to predict. Dont ask questions about tomorrow.
Tommorow is a day for us to explore and life with happiness.
Judging and predict the future, isn't that a stupid thing to do?
Why do that? Why not make tomorrow a mistery?

Love is everything. Love can never be described with words. Everyone have different views in love. We humans are a same genetic code. We are from a same species. Yet we are different. Our thinking, our view in love, the language we speak are all different. So how are we gonna describe love in a same way? I love you, Ti Amor, Sarangheyo, Aishiteru, have the same meaning. But different language. Love can be mean nothing, Love can be everything. Love can be purely from family, and Love can also come from someone you know

Phoebe, I love You. That’s what I know, You can make my heart beat so damn fast. You can also make my heart sink. A complicated feeling, a funny feeling which is from my heart, wish to protect you, wish to know more about you, wish to understand you, wish to care more about you, wish to love you unconditionally. I know you have been hurt, I understand your feeling, I’ve been through that situation and I know that feeling. It’s fate or coincidence that I meet you? I think it is both, I think fate bring us together and a coincidence that we met that particular day. I’m really lucky, fortunate that I meet you. You are different, You say you’ve change, and know what? I really agree with you, I know I might not know you long enough to say that but I can feel that you’ve changed.

You understand the situation, You are really matured in some way and I’m damn happy to know and be with a girl like you. You say, I need not to spend money on you, You say I need not to call you often, when I hear that, you know how happy I am? Maturity is what I saw in you and I’m really happy to be with a sweet, matured girl like you. Prince or no prince, princess or no princess, Rich or not, I’m hope I’ll be the only one in your heart. I want things to last. I know we can’t meet often, I know I cant call you often. But I really don’t hope things don’t work out because of this.

Love is a process of self discover. We will understand our self better, understand our inner self.
Know who we really are when we love someone, because that is the time where we will find our true self when we life with someone which loves us. Besides that, it is also a time where we can learn how to understand someone’s feeling, personality, likes, dislikes. We will grow more matured during this time and be wiser. It might take a person to make you lose your faith, but do you know when it takes someone to make you fall in love, how sweet is the feeling?
Love is not about taking risk, Love is not about preparing for the worst, Love is not about sex. Love is purely a sincere feeling from your heart. Don’t doubt me, Don’t feel insecure, I sincerely love you. Just don’t doubt my love. Its not about the 3 lucky ones or not. There is no statistics to show how many guys are good and how many girls are good too. We just be ourself and love someone. What we can do is just that. When you love someone, nothing else matters if a couple loves each other very much.

Doubt and Insecure.

Doubt and Insecure.

Girls always have doubts and an insecure feeling all the time. Constantly asking question in their mind. Did they selected the perfect choice? Or there is another better choice which is yet to be found? Or did they make a correct decision? Is their lover the right one? These are a few question which are frequently playing inside a girls mind. Well, why this occurs? The simple reason is due girls complicated psychological thinking which is playing here and there constantly.
Well, another explination is due to the past exprience which the girl had been through. If a girl had gone through a bad time for the first few relationship and things didnt really go well, their brain will program in such that they generalize that boys are such and such. And thus resulting that they will feel insecure and always doubt their future partner due the bad exprience. Is this a good thing? Some will agree. Some will deny.

It is definately a very good mechanism for them to protect themself from bad relationships in future. But, with an insecure heart and constant doubts, will the girl give all her heart to love someone whom really loves her? No. The pros and cons is there and the debate is going on every second.

Bad relationship will eventually break off.
Bad exprience will teach us to be better prepared.
However, in Love we cannot prepare for everything.
Because we humans is not perfect beings and we will
be lost in translation when it comes to a thing call Love.

What we can only do as humans is trust our hearts and
Follow our heart to love someone unconditionally.
Love someone for who they are.
Accept who he/she is.
Try to understand him/her day by day.
Never doubt one's love towards you.
Be truthful toward your lover.
Stay loyal to your lover no matter what happens.
Be contented but not Demanding.
Dont love someone blindly but love someone maturedly.
Listen everything that you lover says.

Do you ever feel that the first thing you wanna see is your lover?
Do you ever feel that you want your lover be by your side?
Do you keep on thinking your lover non-stop?

Love is a feeling which you feel when you are in a relationship with someone.
No exact words can describe Love.
But I dont care.
This girl which i never thought that I will meet in my life,
I had fall for her and I know I love her.
I asked myself, will I protect her?
Will I Love Her with all my heart?
Instantly, A Yes is already in my mind.
3 things i wont forget about her.
Purple.
Emo.
diffeRent
I want this relationship to last. I'm gonna sacrifice all i've got just to make her happy.

-I love you-

Zettai Oshiawase, Mamoru Anata.

Love you. When we first met,
it was raining silently
You were standing there
and Now I realised you were crying.
Lou you,
You were lonely and hurt.
In a split second, i found myself love you.
I understand
you were crying because you were sad,
I'll stand by yourside
so i can wipe all you tears
I'll protect you from now on
from everything that hurts you
I'll never understand why it happens,
But I don't care.
It'll never be Kanpeki,
Demo zettai ni oshiawase ni suru yo ( but I swear I'll make you happy )
I promise, I'll mamoru you, forever and ever.

Just Follow Your Heart.

Follow your heart and seek who loves you.
Perfect or Right, It is just another choice.
We just have to follow our hearts and feelings.
Seek for True Love.
Seek for Someone We LOVE.
Follow the flow and take it slow.

Babe
Don't ask Who Loves You. As there is always someone who does.
Don't doubt Who can be trusted. As there is someone you can.

Follow your heart. Love someone you love as much as you can

Live life to the fullest.

Let us Be Happy for what didn't happened.

Let us Cheerish for what happened.

Forever together with Me.

Purple no Kaze

When It Rains, Seeing Water Droping From The Sky
As If Someone is Cry Makes Me Feel So Insecure.
And When all That Take Place,
I feel lonely and I feel I need someone
and I just want a Sun To Shine In My Life Instead of A Dark Rain Fall Upon Me.
Now someone Shines my life and my soul..
Keeping me warm.

If everyone in this world want to live together,
why do they hurt each other?
Why do they separate?

The song you’ve taught me
still lies within my heart.
Together with you, that tender voice resounds in my heart.
The fragment of my overflowing emotions
streak down my warm cheeks.
I’m always by your side.

No matter how far you go,
you’ll still be in my heart.
With that tender smile, my heart just beats faster and faster
Even if you feel pain…we’re tied together,
I believe we’ll meet once again.
I’m waiting for your love.
I hope you’ll share your loneliness with me.
so don’t let go.
I love you, I trust you

Miss Purple.

Take one step at a time
There's no need to Rush
Its like learning how to fly
or Falling in Love.
It's gonna Happen And
It's suppose to Happen.
ONLY That we need to find the reason why.
One Step at a Time...
One Step at a Time...

It rained today.. Again like yesterday and the yesterday of yesterday.

I told myself not to cry anymore and I promised not to cry anymore.

I said to myself I've met someone in my life.

She dont wan me to cry and it hurts her to see me cry.

So i don't want her to be Hurt again.

I wanna protect her with all I can

Everything I wrote is True.
It aint a question for you.
It's just how you are to Me.
It's just how I feel toward You.
Yes You are an Angel.
An Angel for Me.








Winter is Over and Summer is Comming.






The Rain is Over and the Sun Shines the sky.










Like the Purple Flower Bloom in Summer.







Why should You be worth it for Me just for us to be together?
Is Mina or Ji Won worth each other's Love?
People leave for a better person.
Not Ji Won. Not Mina.
There are people who are better than You and Me.
So what?
Will I Leave you for someone better?
No!I'd stay with you because You're DIFFERENT than others.

We Never Know what Lies ahead of Us.
We Never Know our dreams will come true.
We Never Know what Love can Do.

But I Know, I'd Fall For You.

Purple Love.

True Love will Never End.
You'll fake your death for someone you love
You'll your lover no matter he/she is at another part of the world.
You'll even change your identity just to stay beside him/her.
No matter what is the price, You pay just to be with your true love.

I met a girl not long ago. She was a complete stranger to me.
If it was not for my friend, I think I be knowing her for my life.
Call it coinsidence. But I say it's fate which bring us together.
She have short-mid length red-purple highlighted silky hair.
She was a hot girl in that purple dress that day.
She is a cute girl in casual from her pictures.

However, that was not the day i get to know her.

It was weeks later, when i really get to know her.
I found out she is different from other girls.
She is so different from other girls.
She warms my hearth when we were chatting.
She is unique. Words cant really describe her.
Because I cant find a word to describe her.
She's a lil misterious and a lil naughty.

Yet, soon.. I found she was a Capricorn.
I found out. She was hurt deep inside.
Her wound in her heart was way back.
But its still opening and looks fresh.
No one was there to heal her wound.
Why??
I just don't understand why would a guy
HURT HER??
She was trying to love.
Yet She ended up hurting herself
and then lose Faith in Love.
She locked herself.
In an unreal world since then.
Lock herself from the Beauty of Love.
Lock herself from the World of Love.
She was fragile like glass.
But Her heart was shattered by a Jerk.
A glass shattered wont hold as a piece as it was Before.
I never thought she was that girl.

This world was once not a matter for me.
But now, I'll give all up
Just to breathe the same air as you till the day I Die.
Whisper I Love You in your ears.
Wipe your tears and
Turn it to Laughter.
and Take away all your fears.
It time You open up, and let my love right through you.
I cant get my eyes off you and
Thats what I when I see my life in your eyes.

Fallen. HeartBroken.

Heart Broken is What I'm feeling Now.

*HeartBroken*

I’ve a heart which is broken and is Bleeding.

My love is bleeding all its way to eternity.

Love is an Addiction.

It is higher than Marijuana, Estasy or Morphine

Its an addiction which won’t stop

till you find a Person which will stop that addiction with Love.

Even you fall from Heavens;

*Fallen From Heaven*

You still can pick up the Pieces which was S h a t t e R e D

One by one. However you will not be having a perfect one back.

Because some of the little fragments is lost forever.

Deception?? Truth?? The Words behind Love.

Lately life has been complicated again for me again..

NO!! MY FINALS Is in the Corner and why the FUCK i'm blogging away??! Damn..

I just do not understand why people just wont be truthful??

In relationships or friendship..
Why they need to conceal everything and sugarcoat the lies beneath?
Why they keep everything a secret until it was discovered?
WHY?!! FUCK IT tell me why??!
If I didnt ask, I assume that you wont tell me everything?

He never liked me before.
He hated me for who I’m and I cant do anything about that.
He have issue with me, But I have no SINGLE issue towards him.
I hope he truly loves you for who you are
I really wish that he go after you is to Take Revenge by taking you.
He thinks that I always make fun of him
WHICH I’m NOT and Wont.
Fuck It If he thinks I’m.

He might not seems what he is to you.
But I ain’t gonna talk on that.
Even I go out with you, WHY SHOULD He SHOUT on the FUCKING Phone?
Is he trying to break you eardrums?
I don’t really know what the fuck is in his mind.
Yea, he is a pretty boy, a ladies boy, So what?
Have Sex without a condom when he is a minor? AND FREAK OUT LATER?
Asked me to put a Pregnancy Kit in My Car During Prom?
Then Treat me like the Idiot? WHAT THE FUCK??!
I’m Not Pissed Off of You two being together.
I don’t really give a damn.
But what I’m piss is you’re so FAKE!
Sugarcoat everything.
You can think I suck.
But You Suck to The MAX.
And I don’t really care what you think of Me!

You said I didn’t open up for you,
But did you really come to me and understand me?
Whenever anything happen, you just hide it
Under your dark closet and lock it there.
Why cant you always tell me the truth and explain what is really going on
Instead of keeping it a secret and lie to me?
You’ve made your choice and I hope you’ll be happy.
I’ll pray for you, pray for your happiness.
Which I really doubt that he can give.
It’s your choice and Be Happy Always.
I know HE wont be happy if I contact you. So
I’ll ignore you from this second onwards.