晴天

雨后，天就晴了。
在天还没委托你身边的那位天使，
你依然会寂寞孤单。
但是在阴天黑黑的黑云是永远遮蔽不掉那灿烂的太阳的。

After it rains， the sky will be clear again
Before god entrust someone to you,
You'll still continue to be lonely and lost
But,
the dark clouds from the cloudy day
will never cover up the shinny Sun forever.

Fun Day With Nancy @ Malacca

Places We went Yesterday

- Clock Tower area
- St Paul Hill
- A Farmosa
- The Old Melaka Palace
- Dataran Pahlawan for Massage and shopping!!
- Tribe the Houz for some Drinks
- Taming Sari Tower!!
- Beach @ Klebang

Food We Ate

- Cendol
- Lo Han Guo
- Nasi Berani ( Malay Rice )
- Baba Nyonya Dinner

I dun wan talk much.. I'll upload pictures and let pictures tell the story...

Nancy, I've a very very nice time together with you this two days.. I'm glad you planned to come to Malacca... To bad, you're not feeling well.. We didnt have the time to eat Satay Celup... In future, if you come to Malacca again, I promise to bring you to have satay celup..
Thanks Sis!

Today was one hell of a great day...
And Tiring too... Gosh... I didnt slept well yesterday because i was planning where to bring my lovely Nancy 姐姐 from taiwan to go around Malacca.. Then woke up early today as i have 8 o clock class till 10.. Then after class i went to the bus station to enquire about bus ticket to Malacca.. But no ticket is available.. So final choice was to take the taxi with Nancy to Malacca.. So I'll meet her around 5pm at Nilai Ktm Station. Then we take Ktm to Seremban.. Then Take a Cab from there.. But Nancy was stuck at Kl Sentral due to huge crowds heading back home as it is a long holiday for everyone..So i waited for her till around 6 o clock.

When we reached Malacca, i brought her to eat fried oyster at Bunga Raya.. Its totally different from the fried oyster at Taiwan.. Then we walked to Jonker from Bunya Raya.. Well, She was glad.. Along the way, we passed by The Red House area and also Malacca River Sidewalk.. Took Some photos there... Then headed to jonker. She said it was like Taiwan. Haha^^

Drive her around Melaka Raya Area as it was the heart of Malacca. Show her clubbing areas nice place to grab food and etc..

Well, Hope you Enjoy your time here Sis.. Muacks!

The Last Resort of Love

要你小小的几分钟的陪伴。
要你短短的几句话的关注。
这些很过分吗？

你又发觉到吗？
自从上个星期。你已经渐渐地忽略了我吗？
一旦你进了学会。一旦你有了新朋友。
从那刻开始，你有发觉到我们之间的距离渐渐远了吗？
因为害怕失去你。
因为害怕失去跟你在一起的时刻。
因为害怕再也不会看见你的身影。
开始怀疑我怎么了
因为我的愚蠢。
因为我的冲动。
因为我的混乱。
令我失去了你。

不舍得 舍不得 都分手了
舍不得 不舍得 散了
我伪装着不露出痕迹地伴坚强撑。
但是怎么隐藏 我的悲伤？
失去妳的地方
失去你的身影
失去你的发香
失去你的陪伴
永远地失去你了

这次在我心里那眼泪
模糊了视线
麻木了感觉
聋着了听觉
停止了呼吸

若爱上一个人什么都会值得去做
想就这样
牵着你的手不放开
一直到永远永远。
但是我办不到了。


雨下得好安静
雨过之后更难忘记
忘记我还爱你
我知道不能再留住你
也知道不能没有孤寂
感激你让我拥有缺点的美丽
就让回忆永远停在那里
幸福真的不容易
原来
我撑着撑到傻了
原来
我爱你爱到盲了
原来
我对你说了不该说的爱。
会不会有人可以明白呢？

我已经跟不上了
我在月光下 一直找寻
你离去的痕迹
那想念的身影
那幸福的身影
我会发着呆
然后忘记你
接着紧紧闭上眼
想着总一天 会有人代替
让我不再想念你

眼泪是一种提醒
让一切归零写下结局
仍相信爱会有奇迹
爱上你是我的错
可是离开又舍不得
如果我们还能重新来过不去计较谁对谁错
你会怎么做
我从来没想到会有这样的结果
是爱的太少
还是要求的太多？
曾经就算是一个吻
但是那个吻对你算是什么？
而现在就算拥抱着为何两颗心总不知所措难道注定就这样擦肩而过

为什么
爱不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害？

Want a Few Minutes of Your Accompany
Want a Few Caring Lines of Yours
Is it too much for you?
Did you notice? Since last week, once you’re with your club, once your with your friends.
From that moment, You’re forgetting me and the distance between us has lengthen.
I’m scared to lose you.
I’m scared to lose our times together, lose our memories.
I started to think and due to my stupidity, you slipped off from my hands and my life.
I’m not willing to lose you.
Acting its nothing and there is no damage done.
Yet How Am I gonna hide my sadness and loneliness?

The tears from my heart
Had blinded me
Make my feelings numb
Deafen my hearing
And made me Stop Breathing

If you love someone, everything you do for him/her will be worthwhile.
I want to hold your hands till times of eternal times.
But I cant anymore.

Rain falls silently.
After the rain, it makes me harder to forget you.
Difficult to leave behind my love for you.
I know I cant keep you any longer.
And I know I cant go without loneliness.
Thank you for giving me an imperfect happiness.
Let our memories ends at the happiest point and stops at the most heartbreaking moment.
To stumble on happiness in not easy.
It turns that I am blinded by love
And
I said the forbidden love which is not meant to be said.

I cannot catch up anymore.
I’m finding the footprints of yours when you left me under the dim moonlight.
That figure which brought true happiness to me
I’ll be in a trance and then I’ll forget you.
Close my eyes tightly and think that
Someday, someone will replace you
Makes me stop thinking about you.

My Tears is my reminder
Let everything start from zero and write our ending.
Yet, I still believe that there always has miracle and wonders in love
Loving you is mine to blame.
But Leaving you is dearly for me.
If we can start afresh and again,
And do not to be particular and fuss about trifles between us.
What will you do?
I never thought and think of the consequence and the effect which lies between us.
Is our love between us too little and minute
Or
Your demand for love is too high?
There was a kiss once before
But what significance it meant?
Even we hugging each other
But why two hearts is at one’s wits’ end?
Could it to be said that we just crossing by each other life without any meaning or significance?

Why cant love be innocent and pure?
Why cant love be simple without any pain and grief?

There is an Angel

So many things had happened to me
good ones bad ones
some unexpected some expected
but the thing is i am embracing
every single thing that had happened to me

things had been really hard for me this past few months
too many impressing to doubt i know i didnt impress anyone at all
i am just being myself
the plain me

Some turned out to be better than fine
Some turned out to be bad to worst
friends became closer friends
friends became enemy
wat more can i ask for?
People make choices of thier own.

What I can say is
I am blessed with an angel
I always say
Not everyone is perfect
sometimes,
people do have their temper
have their own ways to get their conveniences
have their own stuff to think about
and mostly have their own way of loving someone

there are things that i have to get use to
i will not say that it is easy but i will not say that it is hard too
i will just have to get the hang of it and adept to it
because i know this will be my life for years to come
i didnt regret that it happened
but i do regret how it happened
too many hearts have been broken
just coz of ones selfishness
i hope it will heal when the time comes
i do apologize for everything
once again, i say...i am blessed with an angel...

总感到心里很虚空。缺乏了自己所爱人的疼爱，关心和关注。
快乐和幸福这两个字。从没有出现过我的字典中。
我正要寻找快乐和幸福。屡次被伤害使到我更坚强。
虽然我会崩溃的时刻，虽然我有放弃过的时候。
但是，我依然是坚强下去。人家说，一个美满的爱情只出现在童话里。
但是渴望一段快乐的爱情，渴望一段幸福的爱情，渴望永远的爱情的我认为
我们应该把自己的恋情变童话里的恋爱。
虽然童话里是骗人的，但是喜欢一个人，爱一个人是所付出的感情没有一滴是虚假的。
但你喜欢或是爱一个人时，你会在他心里留下痕迹和轨迹。
这些轨迹和痕迹会永远地留在他心里让他永远地记得曾经拥有过的时光。
有些人渴望爱情，关心和陪伴。有些人却狠狠地把这些推开一旁。
当两者相碰时会发生什么事呢？
有些人，因为身边太多朋友，太多异性的陪伴使得她已经对爱情麻木了。
有些人却被她伤害，拒绝。

你说完了解彼此。你有时间吗？
你说有时间会找我出去。
连拿出一分钟回我的信息也没有
你还敢说这么大的谎言。
是要给我希望吗？
这些谎言我真的不信了。我真的听够了。
如果你真的要了解我不要只用口说。
以行动来表示给我看！
这些谎言只会带来伤害！

你知道什么叫痛吗？？
你知道被耍的感觉吗？
你知道孤单的滋味吗？
老实说你这是体会不到的！

Goodbye

要你五分钟，你也拿不出给我。
我狠狠对你，因为不要你再想我。
要你恨我，要你对我反感，要你对我睁恨。
我不要你在受委屈，
我不要你再哭啼，
我不要你再关心我。

我不值得给你关心。还有人等待你的关怀和陪伴。
虽然很渴望能够有你的关怀和陪伴，但是我已经没可能得到了对吗？

我对你只是身边的一个小草。小小的小草，根本没有一个好去欣赏的一点。你却是一个在公园的一朵艳丽，芬芳的花。吸引了蝴蝶和蜜蜂。

你认为我不痛吗？你以为我不痛吗？
这样对我爱的人说话，你认为我不痛吗？？？
你以为我不想关心你，疼爱你吗？
我也想！！！但是我办不到了！！！
我不要，你再为我受委屈。不要你哭。要你好好地过生活。要你快乐。

Take Care Yourself. I will not be there for you already. I want to but I just cant. Sometimes You cant turn back time and do things again. The damage has been done and it wont be healed again. Things wont be the way it is from now and onwards. You have your own life now and You'll meet someone you Love. Just don let him go when You meet him. Once he is gone, He'll never be back. For a girl like you, meeting someone you love is easy. I'm really confused about your reason. But i do not want to know. You think what i am now. Just wanna tell you, I'm not who you're thinking now. And I Know that. For what ever reasons to your decision, You keep to yourself. I hope that when you made this decision, You had thought about this and the worst which lies ahead. You fly me from the ground to the tallest mountain and now You Throw me from that mountain into the deepest, darkest and never ending pit. I know I did a big stupid mistake. And Now it cost me alot. It cost me our friendship, it cost me You. I've lost a person which I hope to be with. You said you wanted me to be happy. How? To make me happy and then Kill the happiness by saying some hurtful word to me? I do not Know What Is Happiness. Maybe I'm too numb to know want is Happiness. Spending time with you is Happy. But Still I hoped to find happiness together with you. But I cant anymore.

得空的话。请你听这首歌：轨迹-周杰伦。说好的幸福呢？

Seremban 1 Day Tour

Well, since today is sunday, I woke up late.. around 10am.. Then grab my breakfast ( 4 slices of bread with jam and milo). Went to inti bus stop and wait for the bus to ktm station.. Well, its my first time travel to seremban without car.. LOL.. reached seremban around 11 plus.. Then go grab two bus ticket back to malacca.. one is my rooom mates de.. After that i went Terminal 2 de MBO watch Ip Man which was one of the best movie i watched so far.. Kinda Touching too.. Then i wanted to duplicate my room key.. So i walked whole seremban.. Seriously i mean i walked seremban city area.. Just to find a key maker.. Well i found a key maker and made my extra set of keys then went back to my hostel.. When i'm on my way back (at KTM station) i saw Fong sir.. Haha^^ he is going back to ukm.. so coincident.. chat with him for a moment.. wow, ktm was packed like hell.. like sardine can.. Never mind lo.. Nilai is only 3 stations away from seremban ktm station.. Then i board the bus back to my hostel.. Same situation very packed.. But i manage to get myself a sit.. Was very tired... Very tired after the whole day.. Well, its a happy and fun day..

Love is really something which we cant understand our whole life. One day we meet someone. Then the whole thing continues. from friendship to another level. We will never know if its for sure we love someone. You might say you love a person but you might not. Telling someone I love You, Thinking of somebody, Cry for somebody, and those do not mean you're in love. We always entangle ourself with stupid relationships, get hurt, cry and even try to do something stupid. If love is only happy then what is the purpose to be loved. Love certainly come with Pain, Sorrow and Other Feelings. Yet, we always only hope for Happiness if we're in any relationship. We'll never ask for Sadness when we're in any relationship Rite? Everyone have thier own lovely fairy tale to tell and it is not always end with happiness. Sad and Sorrow always surround us when we're in love but we never know and also think about it.

Some will sacrifice everything for someone they love;
Some will kill for someone they love;
Some will leave someone they love;
Some will let go the person they love most;
Some will fight for the person they love most;
Some just want the person they love to be Happy;

This all depends to individuals and every soul on how they view love and which angle they view from.

Ok.. I have a story here.. Seriously this really piss me off..

I've been befriended this guy since high school. At first he was a really good friend. As time goes, seriously he changed alot.. Seriously i mean alot..

He was a really good friend. Now I cant claim he is a friend of mine.

He was a nice friend now he did something towards me and he dont admit it. Fine i dont care anymore. Do what ever you want.

Just wanna tell you, I helped you and now what you did to me? I dont even call you to repay me back or wat. I do not want to say all this la.. Nawei.. You did the freaking damage and fuck it all. What ever. Money cant buy friendship !

Confused

最近我不懂我发生什么事情。心里很乱，心情低落。我只是想要好好过生活但是我办不到。外表，我是一个开朗，毫无犹豫的男孩。心里我却是一个冷淡，脆弱，很犹豫的。我已经试过不去想这些事，但是我无法做到。这很像有两个我。有点想远离社会酱的思想。我很讨厌孤单的感觉，现在，我就一直会感到孤单。出去，做东西全是一个人。我现在的生活是看人海在街上徘徊。看到那些人的笑容，看到那些人恩恩爱爱，我会很心酸，吃醋。为什么他们有自已爱的人，也有爱他们的人。我却没有。一路来，我谈了总共7个恋爱。每个女友又给我幸福的感受，每个女友有给我爱的感觉。但是，我付出的代价太重了。她们全都伤我上到很深。有些对我出轨，有些接收不到我。虽然屡次被伤，但是我对爱还是由一线希望也没有对爱死心。但是我一直在跟我自已挣扎，跟我的内心挣扎。我只要感受爱的滋味，我想要一个人来关心我，我想要一个人来爱我。要一个人来了解我。难道这么辛苦吗？我要的这些难道要付出这么多代价吗？很想跟一个人讲出我的心情，很想跟一个人讲我的所有的过去，感受，思想和梦想。

I miss home food.. Seriously i miss home cooked food like so much so much.. everyday is like nasi goreng, cha siew fan, chicken rice, nasi campur.. wa.. sian d.. sian lo.. jialat.. Oh my god!! How?? I gt like 18 months to go le.. Siao la.. Miss home too.. well, time is like so slow passing at uni life.. kinda good.. gt so many time to do stuff. seriously i mean alot is really alot.. well i love campus life juz tat i kinda miss home.. well, i;m studying so need to get used to it.. spend alot of money lately.. rm200 is like so fast finish i was like wtf?? internet, stationary, notes and etc.. all run like tap water.. siao la... Really duno how..

Think i wont be changing room too... see how lo.. i'm quite ok with my room d.. so may i wont change d.. cuz its the same if go single room... room will be smaller bt gt privacy.. well see how lo..

I'm happy here.. So exicited for nxt week as i cant wait for exhibition week.. Cool!!
going for Manga, Anime and Games ( MAG club ), Swimming Club, mayb adventure and dance performance club mayb.. see how sin..

My room mate is kinda cool too.. so no worries.. hehe^^

Peace out..

College..

I'm in college finally.. After like so many years watching movies bout college students doing cool stuff, hang out with frens, get laid and other things finally i can exprience it (not the getting laid part la) haha.. It kinda fun and kinda boring too sometimes, fun is u can do wat ever and no one cares. Seriously no one give a damn bout u.. Well, washing clothes, cleaning the room and tidy my bed and study table is a routine for me Already... when it comes to boring is really boring.. u got nothing to do when resting time.. seriously my course mates are like so nerdy.. i'm like so so different.. seriously, they all like 4 subjects... What the Hell?? their classes starts from like 8- 12 then 2 till 6.. like so fucked up de life.. luckily i didnt go for 4 subjects. not that clever.. Taking Chem, Phys and Maths as core subjects and also statistics and mpw as some idiotic and meaningless subject.. but i hope it's kinda fun... Chemi lecturer and Phys lecturer is so interesting and funny.. Maths is like so so serious.. Feeling like to tell her "why so serious?" haha^^
food here is ook.. drinks are expensive.. seriously i dun drink for lunch and dinner.. kinda costly if i wan have good food.. well food is cheap (depends on what u eat la). Theres a nice tong sui stall called "Wong Kok" or 旺角.. When there once and it's exii too.. so no late tong sui supper.. hehe^^ once awhile is ok la.. theres a stall called uncle tan and it's kinda ok too for me.. kinda exii if u eat too nice.. well its all choices.. my breakfast is simle oreo or butter cookies and also some milo and oats... dun wan go eat other food la.. go fill stomach so full then go class is like so so jialat..

well my timetable kinda sucks.. sucks to the max.. but if compared to other smart ass ppl who take 4 subj or sam i'm can say like they're so fucked.. Haha^^ normally i start at 8.. end at 4 usually.. juz tat friday i'll end my class at 5... will update college life soon

2009

2009 a new a year a new life.

2008 was a very meaningful life. A year with ups and downs for me.

Alot of events happened to me. Relationships start and end. SPM. King Scout.
All are chapters of my life which makes me Me.