Ok.. I've stopped blogging like for weeks.. Mayb i;m just to lazy and i'm like have so many things to think and so many shit to worry.. Alot stuff happened to me lately... I mean alot...

Well, i made a kinda smart and stupid decision for myself which is to enrole myself to A-levels in Inti Nilai. How ironic is tat? I like there yet i hate there... The place is so quiet.. A very nice place and a good enviroment for study.. But no entertainment there.. even at melaka is better... Hello, wat i'm doing?? But paid for all the fees d.. so too late to do any back up .. well, i hope i can know frens and also Pretty girls there la.. HOPEFULLY la.. well everyone is like going taylors or sunway... stucked myself in inti.. LOL... never mind lo.. Still can secretly go kl myself since i dun give a damn.. bout my parents.. skipping my orientation... i hate talks and those boring stuff. i just wan to go classes tats alll.. i dun pay for talks and orientation shit..

Life is like boring.. Seriously i mean it.. My routine is like wake up, go for lunch, go jalan at dp or mp find my stuff or just sleep whole afternoon in my brother's room with full blast aircond or on9..then wake up at night on9 on9 on9 or watch movie till very late.. Well, this life sucks.. My friends? dunno go where d.. seriously no contact at all except like jh, bird or ray, others is like *die d ke?* dun care lol... everyone can plan go outing or wat withput calling me no problem de.. I dun care lo.. they go lo.. next time i go outing dun call thm.. tats all.. no big deal..
Wei qian went Ns. Tong go kuantan (dunno true or not) work.. Kek Ns i think. Bern pergi kl taylors study liao. Then others like jh is working. Others I THINK DIE D.. no contact at all. so i assume they either is playing game whole day whole night which is so fucking boring for me.. dunno how they live that kinda of fucking life.
Having this fucked up life for like one month is like hell on earth. Same routine everyday... No holidays no enjoyment of life. Just bored myself to death. Well, life is this.. have to accept it lo.. sian...

Genting Trip

Some pictures during the trip... Lazy wanna blog..

Genting Trip Day 1

Ok.. I'll start from the beginning till the end..
Woke up at 5!! Damnn, it's like the first time i woke up so early... Usually to meet this time, i'll be not sleeping the whole night and do my things online.. But this time i slept and woke up at 5Am i mind u.. *claps* Hehe^^..

After cleaning up and preparing myself, raymond fetch me around 6.00am.. We suppose to reach at jj bus stop at 6! well, malaysians are never punctual.. Haha^^ never mind lo.. reach there around 6.05am (my hse to jj is nt far)... waited there for the bus to come.. and guess wat? the bus arrived at 6.30am.. Wth?? Never mind.. So we board the bus.. Well a disaster comes.. A girl is which is going the trip is SLEEPING AT HOME!! seriously i was like.. &^$#@*! ok lo.. waited for her..we waited till 7.15 if nt wrong.. well.. slpt at bus... wee...

Waked up at Seremban reast area cuz the bus driver wanted to have breakfast and we need to go to toilet.. So we headed to the toilet... I was smsing my mom so i juz follow bernard... he is infront of me.. i can see whr he is heading la.. GUESS wat? Bernard went into the girls toilet and i followed him!!! My frens pulled me out once my foot set in.. Too bad bernard when into the toilet ald..We saw him ran out frm the girls toilet.. haha^^ seriously it was very very funny when we look at his expression..LOL...
After toilet, we went to minum hot drinks at the rest area.. Talked around 20min then we head to genting.. Weee... i zzzZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZ again...

We reached genting cablecar station around 10.35am.. we ride cablecar up to d top.. Yeahoo... Joked bout junyang.. Sry.. *angelic face*

Stayed at ria apartment... hehe^^ well, it's nothing.. Juz be usually like u stay a normal hotel.. Went to 1st world to have our lunch.. Have a hot rock chicken chop set.. rm15.80!! costly.. sim thia wei...

Well.. The whole day is seriously boring.. Really nothing to do and nothing interesting..

Stucked Up

It's been a month since my life is stuck up.. And it is getting from bad to worse.. I dunno what to do in life..Well, it might seems life is easy to me for other people.. But, I'm struggling inside me.. Well, inside me there is a wall, blocking my normal life. I might look jolly and happy on the outside. Yet, i'm lonely, hurted and also struck up.. It hard for me now.. I'm just a normal boy.. I just want a happy and sweet girlfriend... I want to have a enjoyable life.. Not a tormenting one like this... Split into two different characters which is so so different... One which is jolly and carefree while another is the opposite, cold, worry about stuff and also a loner which keeps away from society... I walk my life, without anyone noticing my presence.. I want someone to notice my presence in life. I want to be cared by someone. I want to beloved by someone. I want to be understaned by someone.

Swing Back The Pendulum

Everyone make mistakes and they hope to make over the mistake by reverse time.. Well, time-travelling is still not possible yet.. Hurting someone's heart is certainly not easy on them and also yourself.. After realising your mistakes, you try to make things back like what it should be. Well, things aren't that easy... Once done is done.. People might hate you or even have trusting issue with you... I made a mistake. I hurt someone.. Someone sweet.. Someone whom i love..
Even i want more than friendship now I think it seems impossible now after what i did towards her... If I've a chance to return time, I wish i could correct the mistake to make things happier an easier now..

To Love and Beloved is a sweet feeling.. Just like the summer blows upon your face, petals of cherry blossom falls on your head.. A wonderful feeling.. A feeling which words cant describe..

I just miss the times when we are together... I want all those times together back..

I just need a girl to understand my needs.
Why no girl can just understand me?
I just need a girl to care about me.
Why no girls cant really care bout me?
I need a girl to accompany me and share life my life with.
Why no girl can really accompany me when I really need her?
I just need a girl which is loyal to me.
Why they always betray me?
I do not to be alone.
Why they always leave me alone?

If i can swing back the pendulum and correct things, the future and now will be better...

Trust and Love

Love is unpredictable.. It can be come can go any time it wishes to..
Love and Trust always clashes..
If you trust someone, you might not love him/her.
If you love someone, you might not trust him/her.

Trust is earned, Trust is gained..
After Hurting someone's heart and feeling or doing something bad towards someone..
That person trust towards you certainly will decrease and also they might not trust you anymore..

Scout Farewell @ Seoul Garden

Well, Scout night is nt a success but at least there is a small farewell party @ seoul garden at 11/12 on 12.30pm... Thx to the form4 and those who attend it.. well, sorry if i didnt go talk to you juniors... Sorry...

Seriously, for the first time i ate so much.. Bloody hell, went there eat for like 4 hours.. Walao... Eat, Chit Chat, Jalan abit, Then go back EAT.. walao... I think the staff also pek chek... WE use like sooo many plates.. Haha^^

Here is some pictures....

All our gifts stacked together

Ching & Jason

Yen Ming & Bernard

Lye & Sim

THE PLATES!!!!!

King Scout!

This is my King Scout badge... There's alot similar badge like this.. BUT this is MINE... MINE MINE MINE!

KL

Went up KL.. Shopping for Clothes..
weeee... Syoknya... Bought quite alot of stuff.. Pants, Shirts.. Cost me total up to rm100+ only.. Well, i bought a long pants.. Doesnt looks like skinny jeans mia pattern.. But when i wore it.. Damnn.. The Shop Assistance also chuak.. He say why u wear like skinny jeans mia cutting.. I say i dunno.. Well, he say nice.. so bought it with out hessitation.. where i go.. Well dun wanna mention.. who i go with i also dun wan tell.. Dun wan to brag like some other people.. Juz wanna stay low.. Some people go out diam diam so went ever he/she ask me whr to shop i'll juz say find yourself since u so pandai go out without calling me. So why shld i tell..
Lol...

双面人的朋友就在我身边。需要我帮忙就来找我，不用我是当我傻的。就算了咯。

Torn Apart Inside

Striving in modern living and this quick expanding society, many have sound the drums of triumph and some have defeat in agony. True Love is still a phrase and it has been making people indulge in this phrase for decades. Many had lost their soul to it, some sacrifice for it, some kill for it and some run from it.

True Love is there and yet to be found. For a believer in True Love, I always ask people what is love and the true defination of it. Yet, it is undefined. It's so unreal and abstract to be studied in books.

Love is Sacrifice, Love is Understanding, Love is Forgiving, Love is Accepting, Love is Loyality.

I mean why? Why Cant A Couple Just Love each other and it stays like that no matter what, even fights and quarrels. They say you'll understand each other more after each fight yet to me it's all total bullshit.

Craving for a fruitful and happy relationship yet ended up hurt deep inside.
Sacrificing everything you have for a relationship is that noble or stupidity?

We might not look as strong as we are as in emotionally and mentally.

The moment of loneliness will just kill you in the matter of seconds.

Doing everything your own? I wonder how strong you are.
Having meals alone and drunk myself alone with rum and beer isn't the life i craved for.
Spending quality time alone at the beach without someone by your side is pure LONELINESS.

I want to be loved and beloved.
I want to be cared for.
I want to be understanded by someone special.
I want to be value by someone special.
I want to be treasured someone special.

I'm Torn Apart Inside Out

Rain

Rain...

The Weather Which I Hate The Most...

Seeing Couples Sharing An Umbrella Makes Me Makes Me Feel Lonely.

Seeing Water Droping From The Sky As If Someone is Cry Makes Me Feel So Insecure

Rain is Cold..

Rain is Windy..

Rain is Glommy

Rain is Sadness

When It Rains My Memories Of You Just Rust Into My Veins.

When Of You Just Rust Into My Veins it Makes Me Think Of You.

When I think Of You Hatred and Anger Fills Me.

And When all That Take Place, I feel lonely and I feel I need someone.

Rain Please Stop.

I Don't Want To Remember all the PAST

I just want a Sun To Shine In My Life Instead of A Dark Rain Fall Upon Me.

DOWN WITH INFECTION!!!

GT LYMPH NODE INFECTION!!!!!!!!!

SHIT... REALLY KILLING ME... CANT DO THINGS I NORMALLY DO!!

JIALAT...


HERE IS MY ANTIBIOTICS

Beach

Went to beach today with my lovely cousin~~

Juz some random picture to share

Jetty Session..

Went Jetty With friends today... know bout it last minute.. so juz go... room 27.. a hell of a big room... well was surprised when boss hav a ear hole... damn.. he said he wont have 1... but now.. Haih.. Boss u let me down.. haih~~

Go there... Sit still nia.. Buat bodoh... Well, an idea poped up... went to book another room.. Weeeee.... can sing.. saw rm16 till end.. so i tot is only rm16.. manatau.. when the bill came.. rm38.60.. Wa, i was lik stunned for 3 sec.. looking at the cashier.. lol!!
ok la never mind... 2 hours of fun shared by 5 people.. ok ma.. Me,Lye, Boss, Jason, Vincent go share one ppl rm8.. include the stupid junk food la.. never mind lo.. rm8.. 2 hours.. rm4 per hour.. happy~~ Happy giler...
Sing all my hearth out.. Haha^^

Had fun today~~

English Breakfast...

Today.. Wake up early... Cook myself an english breakfast... Hehe^^ Eggs with Baked Beans... Nice... Sure la i cook myself de.. Haha^^ Kinda Hooked on shuffling lately.. Gonna Reborn into Shuffle again.. Long time didnt pawn kao kao in shuffle d.. Hav 1 week to prepare...

Lonely

Feeling Lonely...

I'm unconned.. HAHA^^

Went Dp again today have lunch together with parents.. Then went window shopping again. On my way back, i went to Mcd again to try my luck to get a sundae.. Luckily the noob isn't there ald.. So i gathered my guts to call a choc sunday again after yday..
Know wat?I said to the cashier: "bang, semalam i beli sundae choc sikit, ice-cream sikit saje..Hari ini bagi lebih sikit la"
He diam diam.. Tot he ignored me.. But guess wat?
I got myself a perfect sundae! Perfect !!
The Chocolate he press turn and turn and turn and turn.. Fuyooohh.. I tell u.. the choc is so much... Every mouth of ice cream is with the choc and after finishing the ice-cream still have chocolate somemore.. enjoy my time licking out the choc frm the spoon.. Haha^^
See for yourself

Ok... Seriously i Got Conned.. MY rm2 got CONNed

All this blaming goes to Mcd la.. Evryone knows that Mcd got the stupid promotion fro the choc sundae and strawberry sundae.. So yday i go grab myself one as the promotion is ending soon and i was in dp... Also i Really lurve choc sundae.. Went in Dp de mcd... so i order a choc sundae.... Then the cashier tell the part-timer lo.. Seriously @$#$#@!$@^^**&^# I really feel lik to kill the part-timer la.. He gave the ice-cream is so so so so little juz a little bit above half a cup.. Normally i get is more than 3/4 cup of ice cream.. Then the choc is so so so little.. i think he juz press abit only.. the choc juz cover a little part of the ice cream.. Damm seriously i wont go dp for another Choc sundae.. got conned rm2.10.. Haih.. Sim Tia... Kek Sim.. The Ice Cream suppose to cheer me up manatau walao give me a bad mood.. lol...

What Going lately~

Spm is finish for me on 1st dec... Officially la.. Generally Spm was ok la.. But some papers lik add maths paper 2 section A is kinda tough.. others was ok ok only.. but still it's over and no more worries bout it... Result is results and i know what type of results i gonna get..

Life after spm is sian sian sian ~~ Quit gaming already.. get bored easily... keep on9 online play play and play.. lol.. sian d la ~

Ok... I DYED my hair~~ DYED i mind u.. WHole haird brown.. whole hair brownn.., lol~~ so happy my parents didnt object.. so going to keep it until i go college... Hehe^^

Wnt window shopping at Dp and Mp today.. alone.. while waiting mummy to finish work as i need to pick her up frm office... seriously i found NTG !! ntg to buy... due to recession which is going on lately saving is on my mind.. so didnt spend any money on anyt after i dyed my hair...

Mom cook tomyam beehoon yday.. very very nice.. she bought the paste frm jj then suddenly i smell tomyam frm the kitchen so i saw she was cooking a big pot of tomyam.. For 3 person only.. me dad and mummy herself. 3 person but a really big pot.. Gt prawns, sotongs, chicken, cabbage adn carrots.. Very simple tomyam but very nice... heehe^^ Snapped pictures...